okay, so here i am again. like, six months later... wow, it's quite hard to get the english back in your head after a long break. well, i'm mostly writing 'cause i don't feel so good atm, and i don't want to publish that in my other blog but still, i feel like i have to write 'cause something good can come out of this heartache. or at least something that's poetic or some shit like that. so, give me a moment to catch my breath and i'll tell you all why i'm blue.