and hey, i just want you to know that i'm feeling gr8. i thought that a post where i'm saying that is necessary, considering to all these kind-of-depressed ones, lol.

i'm quite sick at that everything has to be about love, but in the end - that's all that it comes down to, i mean for real. everything is love. love is everything. but right now i'm tired of it. i'm afraid of drawing a heart on my papers when i'm doodling, 'cause that is known for being a sign of that you're in love or something like that, and i don't like that. i don't want to be in love, i don't want to believe in it as i said. but since i'm now talking about love i might aswell update you on my heartache-status. some days after i wrote here i found out that he was back together with his ex, but some weeks afterwards he contacted me and we started to talk again, and then i heard that they'd brooke up (altough he never said this to me). and i now don't know what to do really. i don't think this is the kind of love i'm looking for atm. picture from my last party before school that i mentioned before, it was awesome. and it's an reminder that i should talk to this girl 'bout my problems. so long.

Fo shizzle my dizzle!

okay, so here i am again. like, six months later... wow, it's quite hard to get the english back in your head after a long break. well, i'm mostly writing 'cause i don't feel so good atm, and i don't want to publish that in my other blog but still, i feel like i have to write 'cause something good can come out of this heartache. or at least something that's poetic or some shit like that. so, give me a moment to catch my breath and i'll tell you all why i'm blue.

aint i sweet? she's gold to me.

i have to study "civics"(?) atm. but. it's. boring. the computer is so much more fun. but hey, i'm about to become a nerd. that takes focus. or maybe i just should give in to the inner nerd of me? sims, here i come.

i'm sorry for that break, but i will be back! i've realized that i manage to do so much else if i don't have a blog atm. so for now, this blog doesn't excist. i know that i'm a heartbreaker but what can i do? bye bitches♥

i wrote on my other blog that what i've been longing for for so long(haha) finally is happening. but the problem now is that i'm scared, afraid. what if this is wrong? i'm quite lost atm actually... it feels like i'm torned in two pieces, altough that has nothing to do with the first problem. yeah, i'm talking 'bout my lovelife. okay, my non-excistent lovelife i guess i should call it. and the problem is, i'm about to actually get a lovelife, but what if it is the wrong guy? then again, i might have got it all wrong... but if i have, will that make me sad? confused is the word. confused and torned(but for different reasons).

okay, i shoudln't be allowed to think when i have this stuff. and people absolutely shouldn't show me strong emotions atm. good night, i'm going to bed. fml.