hey, i payed a visit to africa in april. awesomeness. i've also had an kick-ass summer with a lot of parties and some loving (you already know 'bout my obsession with that shit). i'm quite excited to start school again, i'm guessing that the party on friday will be the last this summer vacation so i'm looking forward to going out with a bang. i'll get over this heartache, definitly.

honestly, i hope that i'm feeling this shitty 'cause i'm 'bout to have this experience once again, but still, it's like two weeks left if it suddenly has decided to become regular. otherwise, it's the fact that i let you go that's making me this depressive. and i think the best way to get over it is to write 'bout it (The best way to get over a woman is to turn her into literature, 500 days of summer, Henry Miller) and maybe talk it all over with a friend or something and to just keep on living, get other things to think 'bout. i know that i've got an opportunity to forget him on friday already. or, that's the next time i'm planning to get drunk anyway.

i've never understood how you can only be interested in one guy at the time, until i met this dude. maybe it was because other guys had worked me up so that i was ready for a real relationship for once in my life, but then i had to go and blow it all. or maybe it's just his fault as much as mine... i told him to go for his ex 'cause he still likes her. but i like him aswell, and what if he likes me too? but i know that he likes her more, i mean, i've only known him for about a month, but it still feels so right. i mean, i was ready to stop flirting with other guys completely, and i've never felt that way before.

love. i don't want to believe in it anymore, it's just annoying. i've always done this to other guys too, i've always pushed them into going for my friend or their ex just 'cause i'm afraid. afraid of getting hurt i would guess, or afraid that they'll regret choosing me over someone else. yeah, that's it. hey, i hardly know this guy. i'll meet someone eventually, and all this shit behind me will only make me stronger and more experienced, it will get me ready for when the real deal comes. but i'm still hoping that he'll realise that he had me and then maybe he'll come back, 'cause i'm quite sure that he wont get back together with his ex actually... although i'm kind of hoping that he will, 'cause i know how much he likes her. but i can't imagine that he'll suddenly just call me or something. it felt as if we said good bye forever yesterday... but i'll always remember the good times, the nights we spent in the same bed together♥.

okay, hopefully the last time i upload a picture like this(believe me, i have much worse from that night):

thought it was quite fitting that last time i wrote, i was headed to this^. o.m.g. i had one of the best nights ever! and i got to celebrate valetines day alone with my five hickeys, excellente. altough the lips on the picture wasn't one of the makers to any spot on my neck. but i'm not the one who kiss'n'tell...

anyways, after that i got pretty sick, and during thoose days i didn't spend any time in front of the computer. almost none anyway. but now i have to make pancakes. i'm actually looking forward to tomorrow, to seeing a certain guy in school. loca loca.

.hola!

last night was awesome, said goodbye to a couple of good guys at about 2.30 and came home 3 - straight into bed. today i'm going to uppsala for la fiesta, two hours to go! i wont be seeing this cat then, 'cause we're sleeping at linn's place, hardly know the girl but that's the uppsala-lifestyle. have an awesome night dudes!

okay, it will be either martin (who lives far, far away) or lollo (who lives a little bit closer). but i said yes to martin first... and it sure will be nice to get into that warmth and watch a movie with like... ten other guys. or wth, i don't know who's coming there. nicesurprise. martin it is. but first - serial killers.

this was a pretty relaxed thursday. i had two lessons plus lunch(pancakes!) and i laughed as hell in the good company of denise, sara and malin. and volleyboll at the p.e. rocked. i'm allowed to brag about that i scored the last point that made my team the ultimate winner. slipped on the way to the bus, first time ever that i actually fell on my ass.


today i also handed in my future. a green note of wich classes i want to read in second and third grade. i'm pretty excited over some classes, like programming and journalism, but not as glad over mathematics e... but i'm most of all looking forward to the criminology-classes, awesomeeeh.

gosh, have to finish a text about serial killers now, i'm actually feeling sick.

today i had an big exame in chemistry. the final test you might say. and god, i did lousy. well, that maybe depends on what youre expecting... since i didn't expect all that much from me, im quite satisfied. but my dad on the other hand, will problaby get a bit... mad. sitting there on the test, i realized that im not the girl that someone would think is good at chemistry, so wth. all i hope for now is that i just pass the test.

it's been quite comfortable with an evening without having to study. well, i should study, i have another test on friday and an essay to hand in that same date. but i thought that i deserved a night off since i've studied like a pig(a pig that goes to school) for the test today. good night.

plans4today: shower, choose "orientation", study chemistry, g33k-time, thai-food with martin and kalle, movenight at martins, sleep. last night at lollos was awesome.

i had the best ending of school today. just wanted to let you know that. and i was surrounded by guys. so it's thanks to them i mean. longing for SATURDAY(& friday).

as my friends just reminded me on facebook - i'm addicted to food. this is from last sunday when me and my sisters woke up in an empty house with no bread and a note. gr8.

hey i remembered that i owe to tell you guys what happend with that dude that i mention here, here and here(and everywhere else). he texted me this sunday; "we need to talk." with a fucking DOT. so we decided to meet up in school yesterday and we had "the talk". okay, it wasn't that big, but i'm used to solve things like that over text-messages. yeah ellen, you're growing up. so anyways, he talked, i explained, there was some silence and a whole lot of discomfort(it's actually a word). we decided that it was best if he didn't try so hard on me. and now the hard thing will be to hang out with him like nothing had happend when english starts again. and that other thing with his friend with the reallydeepbluebeautiful eyes. i think that "good luck"-wishes are in order?

okay, i lied in the post below, when i wrote it i had forgotten that i were suppose to be in school today. and yes, i was, at 11.02, and my lesson begun at 11.05, in a rush as usual. a few friends were planning to come over tonight to watch a lame movie or something, but truth be told, i just didn't have the stomach for that. yeah, i blamed it all on me being sick to my guts, but really... i think it has something to do with a certain guy that were suppose to come. i don't get it, why can't i like him if he now like me? because i can't find anything wrong with him... maybe it's just that i like someone else(but i always like severel guys at the same time?) but how am i suppose to say that to him? okay, feels like it was a little too many 'suppose's, 'were's and ','s there, but wth. sorry for all the words lately, but as i've said a thousend times before - i'm kenny careface's best friend forever. true story. and i have some wicked teenage-troubles.

good morning cupcakes!

whoaw, finally saturday morning, ey? a time for a looong sleep-in. hopefully this^ to breakfast.

gr8, we're jumping into a ice hole in school next week, i'm gonna go at it harry potter-style! okay, i should give you an awesome link to that, but i can't find it on youtube, so if you've seen the latest harry potter-movie, you know what i'm talkin' 'bout. sorry for the bad update, it seems like my posts wont come away when they should... sloppy work there ellen!

anyways, i've had this incredible flow the past days, i manage to laugh myself to death and pay attention at the lessons, so score. i should study now, but instead i'm getting more and more addicted to sims again. but now i'm gonna hit the shower, tomorrow it's swimming that's on. atm my body is full with pancakes, so yeah, not the best time for a show off in the bikini, but what can i do...


evelinas cute cat on the picture, srsly, i've never seen such a beautiful cat before!

why can't i wake up at this beach tomorrow? just skip school and hang with the wonderful people i met at malta last summer? language-trip i'll never forget.

hola bloggers, i just came home from babysitting sweet little sofia. even though it's quite easy, i love complaining about it, because that's just how life is. you do your job, but you complain as hell just so everyone else wont find out how easy it is to earn(in my case) 140kr. yeaah.

i just laughed all day in school, hardly did any work. heyy... i DID work! wow, good job ellen! you really deserve some time in front of the computer. but facebook has been forbidden this week. well, okay, not forbidden, but i wont check other unknown people's profil because that's just a high stalker-warning on my ass. so, no stalking.

atm i'm just skyping with some friends. and jamming to sweet reagge. wtf, i don't even like reagge. i can't even spell reagge(it's reggae for the one who is as lost as me)! okay, remember girl, just because you're sitting here, wearing a cap, thinking of scrubs and feeling the groove that is reggae does not mean that you aren't the whitest chick on earth. well, i'm actually not that white. yeah you heard me, i speak reggae! yaman. okay lol, this post is ridiculous. shut up meg.

one thing; i love that i have no pain during my "monthlies".
another thing; i hate that i get so much blood during my "monthlies".
a third thing; i love the man/woman who invented the tampon.
wth, i can get in a fourth thing; yeah, use it as your weapon and excuse.

okay, today it's monday... the question is htf am i suppose to manage until friday?
and i have so much school-stuff to do, but when i came home at four-thirty i just fell asleep in the couch, so yeah... i could have been better. and i have to make some serious decisions. my god, this is suppose to be the best time of my life. die.

a baked roll from saturday morning. all gone now, he-he.

yesterday ended with that frida and leo crashed at my place, so atm my room is covered with pillows, mattresses and sheets... and today i played badminton with my mum and sister and after that we took a good turn in the sauna. now we're all gonna watch tv and eat cake before bedtime, goodnight dudes.

heyy dudes! i'm guessing it's time for the first picture of me, kenny careface's bff. and maybe a presentation to go with it?

i'm, like i've mentioned before, 16 years young atm, people call me by my name ellen(some add "på smällen" wich is swedish for knocked up), and i'm in love with music. here's my spotify-account for thoose who wants it. i also enjoy taking photos with my sony a200 and checking through other blogs. i have two sisters and is the middle-kid in a fantastic trio. well, i hope kenny doesn't get to bored with all of this, but i can come back with a more exact text so you really know who i am. or not.